Is it worth it?

I’m writing on empty right now. It’s 2:00 PM Saturday, and I’ve had 5 minutes of sleep since 6:00 AM Friday. There is a two hour nap in my sights, but not just yet… but it’s coming. I sit here trying to stay awake, and wind up listening to the daily audio bible and journalling on my blog, just to keep my mind engaged. I just put my son down for a nap, and prayed for supernatural rest, relief from fatigue, and blessing for the 15+ teens and adults who were at our house all night last night. What a night it was. Full of fun, but also full of times to talk, to reflect a little, and even to just hang out and starve ourselves of sleep for”the cause.”

A noble cause? Maybe not. But it was fun. We had a bunch of the teens from church over for an overnight party at the house. It wound up involving a lot of fire-related sitting and chatting, horseback riding, guitar, games in the dark, movies on the big screen, and games under the barn lights or in the loft. We had one guy who sacked out upstairs and some girls downstairs in the house, and some other girls up in the loft of the barn, and one other guy crashed out by the fire… and I mean crashed – a few of us walked up to him to take his blanket, not even knowing there was a person in there. The rest of us hung in the barn for an all nighter with National Treasure, watched the stars, Moon, Venus, and the Milky Way move through the night, and got to watch the sun both set and rise, all to the tune of the same fire.

Great times. Tiring times. But good. I tie this back in my own life to several events a few years ago where my own heart was pricked to the point of finally opening up to what it really cares about, to where it is really willing to pay the price to make a difference. I’m drawn back to conversations about that heart’s direction, where it might go, and how in the world it might ever get there. This was another step. A step with my wife, with a brother, and with some good friends… and with a horde of teenagers. 🙂

I can’t think of what else to write. Going to finish this DAB, finish an episode of 24 I started 2 days ago, and then crash for an hour or two, I hope… This evening holds plans and opportunties of things that “need to be done,” but we shall see. Not everything is really all that important.

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